what would you do?

I've been feeling conflicted with this feeling I'm having. I'm not sure how i feel or how i should feel.
Should I? Or shouldn't I?
What would she think?
I wish I could but I'm afraid........

About a week ago I've been noticing this mother and son walking in the snow to...I'm not sure where. She's bundled up and he is too. He seems to be around 4 or 5 or maybe younger. He is small. And she's holding his hand and walking him on the sidewalk, or what's left of a sidewalk. It's covered with snow and there's really no space for her to walk any less than her son but she gives him the sidewalk while she tries to walk around the snow. Probably so her son can be safe {if that is even possible}.....
I've drove pass this mother and child numerous times and every time i do, i want to stop and turn around. Drive up to her and ask if she'd like a ride. I'm not sure where they are going but I'm not in a hurry to go anywhere. I'm just coming back from dropping the kids off at school and she's probably trying to get to work and him to day care or preschool.
I want to help.............but i'm afraid. Now a days what will people think? She might think i'm psycho or some kind of freak who'll lash out and beat her or whatever.. {haven't you watched enough thrillers or scary movies?}
I feel bad for her having to walk in the snow with her child. It's so cold outside. This is the time of year when i get really emotional and feeling really bad that i complain about a lot of things but then i see this......this mother and child walking in the snow so they could get to wherever they are going. I bet they probably don't complain as much as i do.
Sometimes i want a new car simply because i see one that's nicer and prettier..........i bet she wishes she had ANY car!
I really wish i could be a better person. I really do.
How did i become this person? We never really had anything growing up..........
We shared our cloths within the four of us, we didn't have the nicest car or even a nice big house. But we still made do. Why am i now complaining that my house isn't enough?
I should be ashamed of myself. For becoming this person. I never want this 'person' to ever come back. I want to lock her up and say good bye and throw the key away. That is a person i never want to be.

This mother has brought me back to reality.
I was so tempted today to turn my car around and ask her if she needed a ride. Where ever she needed to go i would take her.
But what would she think?
A lot of people {even innocent looking people} can turn out to be killers right?
Would she think I'm one of them?

All i want to do is help. But i'm so afraid......Maybe it's my shyness gaining control again? Or maybe i'm just being stupid?
After feeling like such an idiot and an absolute helpless i told myself. If i see her again i will turn my car around and ask her if she needs a ride. So what if she'll freak out or say no, or maybe call the cops on me? What if she takes the ride and we {knock on wood that we don't} get in an accident, will she sue me?

The worst she'll do is yell at me or say no right?
No mother should have to see her child suffer like that. Walking in the cold........Well no mother or child should have to walk in the cold snow.

When i see her and her child, i envision myself and my child. Would i like that? How would i feel? I would feel lost and determined.
Lost because i want so bad to have a better life for myself and my child, but i must be like this so that we can have a better future.
Determined because i am determined to have a better life for my child and I!
And i bet that is how she is feeling.

But what if she says yes to the ride and then expects a ride everyday? I certainly can give her a ride but probably not everyday. Will that make me a bad person? Will that make me selfish?
What if she expects more then?

I want to do better as a person. I want to be able to help when help is needed. Why am i such a coward?
I'm feeling lost and lonely because of this......why is it weighing down on me so much?
This year i vow to help as much as i could.
And i will start with this mother and child. They will make me a better person whether they take the ride or not.

snow fun and one hidding princess

The other day we were taking down the Christmas tree.
We were about to put the tree back in its' box and this is what we found.............sneaky little princess isn't she?

And since we're on the subject of Christmas trees and winter.........We finally got our big snow for the year! YAY!!!
I had bought the kids each a snow suite so they were really excited to get to actually wear it because we were this close {pinching in fingers}to taking it back because we were getting hopeless.
So the kids got on their gears and headed out.........They had a ton of fun and well i did too....taking pictures of them.
So here are just some to entertain you with. I love these rugrats!

Sushi anyone?

I finally learned how to make/roll sushi! I was introduced to sushi a few years ago by the lovely Margie and i have been hooked ever since. I rarely get to have sushi but when i do get the chance, it's wonderful. Well i haven't tried the raw ones yet...maybe one day i will.

Anyways a friend of mine invited me over to eat and to make sushi too, i couldn't pass that up. We had sukiyuki and sushi. I also learned how to make sukiyuki sauce too. Pretty complicated...but i'll try it again.
It was a pretty satisfying day to say the least. I enjoyed the company and really enjoyed learning how to make and roll the sushi.

Now all i have to do is try it on my own........would you like an invite? :)

yellow bean for the sukiyuki sauce

working hard

vola! My first sushi!!

pay it forward

Pay It Forward...

My friend played this game on her blog and I decided to do it too. So this is how it works -

The first 3 people to leave a comment on this (my) post will receive a hand made gift from me during this year. When and what will be a surprise.
There's a small catch...You knew there would be didn't you?
Post this on your blog then come back and leave a comment, telling me you're in. Fun, huh? Remember, only the first 3 comments receive the gift. Come on! You know you want something from me!!

And for those who don't have blogs, it's okay, it'll still count!

10th birthday!

My baby is no longer a baby...........literally! She is now 10! Wow where did the years go? Seriously didn't she just pop out of me? : ) lol

Naree has grown to be a beautiful lady{well not that she wasn't before- but you know what i mean!}. I remember just yesterday that she was just in kindergarten. How I miss those days when I can just pick her up and give her tons and tons of kisses. Now a days I can't really pick her up....she's getting a little too heavy. Wait? Or is it just me getting old? Lets not talk about that right now.

We love this little lady. We love that you love to help me with the cooking. We love that you are always willing to try new food {i think daddy loves that the most} We love that you are always singing, although it gets annoying at times. We love that you always try your best with everything you do especially in soccer. We love how you just love to help out, with anything!.....thank you baby!
We love that you are always thoughtful with your Christmas gifts! You are so crafty! And i can't forget 'fashionable' too. You remind me all the time if i don't look good...........thanks babe, can't get anything pass you!

 Best of all, we love you for being so unique and being YOU! I love that you are my daughter. How did we get so lucky?
I hope you'll never change........for anyone. I hope you stay the unique you for always.
We love you sweetie and are so grateful to have such a wonderful and caring daughter!

Baby baby oohh! Bieber fever!

A princess needs her many tiaras!

For your birthday this year we gave you the option of having a party or just going to build-a-bear and a movie. You picked the latter and to be honest we are glad. A party gets a little expensive. See what i mean? You are always thoughtful and helping. Like i said, we are lucky!

"Dad, do girls poop from their vaginas?" Pretty hilarious movie.......good pick Naree!

Happy birthday! We love you!

Happy New Year!

Saying goodbye to 2010 wasn't a hard thing for me to do. Although 2010 has treated us fairly well, I was ready for a new year to start.
With me being sick and things happening all at once you can understanding my wanting a new chance of things. I'm hopeful that 2011 will bring us some luck and maybe just maybe get me off my high horse!
{okay so maybe that one is up to me and not anything else}

This new year I hope to do a lot of things differently and i hope to be a little more productive. But every time i set myself up for resolutions, it never really falls through. Lack of devotion is to blame i suppose.
Have you ever really set a goal/resolution and it actually fell through?
This year i don't want to set any resolutions. All i want to do is live life to the fullest with my family and try to make it the most of what we have. Settings resolutions have set me up for failure a few times so this time, there isn't going to be any.
No more setting time limits on things that shouldn't be rushed. I am going to see where 2011 takes us. I will try my best to still be a good wife and mother. How i do is all up to how my family perceives it!

On a brighter, this year Lien was asked to be involved with our Laos Association New Year party here in Cleveland. So there was no accuse for us to not go this time. I'm kinda glad that he was asked, i mean it's nice to be wanted for something and he likes being involved...........sometimes! : )
The kids went with us this year, but since they are older now, they've decided that they didn't have to stick around us old geezers anymore. They were all hanging out with the other kids in the lobby. I'm assuming they also had a blast! Of course as always they know the rules...........they come in to check on us often and we do the same.
Works pretty good actually! : )
We had a blast at the party. No a lot of people went this year but it was enough to be enjoyable and every one had a wonderful time.
Since Lien was pretty busy with his duties we only got to dance 3 songs. Bummer i know but it was still good enough. His good God brother dedicated a slow song to us and another couple. Sweet isn't it?
I love ringing in the New Year with such a wonderful guy.....{most of the time! lol j/k}

Cheers to another year gone by and cheers to more of the craziness to come. I wouldn't have it any other way!

hubby and I all ready for the New Year!

Happy New Year! Hope this year will bring wealth and health to you and all your loved ones! I am grateful to have another year to be thankful!